MY BIG EYE OPENER

This weekend i have had a big eye opener. I realized that my whole life I have been puting others feeling a head of mine. In most cases as a mom sometimes you need to do that but I do it when someone hurts my feeling. Instead of saying something, because I think if I do then i will hurt this person or that person. I then i go and feel like crap and take what the person said to me and dwell on it forever, or until I lose it and my husband or my kids get the brunt of it. For that I must say sorry to my husbad and my kids. I need to learn to express my feeling to those people who hurt me or show me they love me and Not take it out on the innocent. I hope to learn to express my feeling to eveyone around me wheather it be good or bad and not sweat about the out come of what I feel. I need to learn to stand up for myself. And on the other hand I need to listen to those around me who are expressing their feeling to me and not take it personally. Everyone has their own feeling on things and i can't take it personally.

I have also realized that all the things from my past i really have not yet dealt with and am now (I hope) ready to deal with. So forgive me if you see me and I look like i have been beaten because I have been crying. or if you call and we are talking and i break down and cry please forgive me. And to any of you who I may have offended PLEASE FORGIVE ME!!!!!! I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!! And thanks for loving me.